– e-book
Read from: September 25th to October 3rd
2013
My rating:
Imagine the creative
impulse is a black hole from which rises a bewildered narrative voice, which
tries to make sense only of itself, not of the world. Which tries to become a
character, or a body, or a feeling, or a story, and struggles to accept both
sides of every coin. Like a picture made only of colours, colours that burst,
that flow, that spring from the canvas in no apparent order and coherence – The Unnamable is made only of words,
whirlwinding round and round the reader in an endless monologue, questioning,
negating and accepting, forever defining the unity of opposites:
I'm there already: I'll start looking for me now, I'm there somewhere. It won't be I - no matter, I'll say it's I. Perhaps it will be I.
It is the same
cadence, the same majesty, and the same quiet contradiction Rig-Veda uses to
describe that weak powerful Unit preceding creation: “He, the first origin of
this creation, whether he formed it all or did not form it,
Whose eye controls
this world in highest heaven, he verily knows it, or perhaps he knows not.”
It is a voice speaking.
Of nothing. Of nothingness. And of everything. Of everythingness (well, well, I
caught it, too!). Trying to cover all possibilities of an issue while
questioning what issue is there. It is the Voice speaking of itself, feeling
whole and barren altogether, pushed by a compulsory narrative disorder J while trying to keep silent:
Ah if only this voice could stop! This meaningless voice which prevents you from being nothing, just barely prevents you from being nothing and nowhere - just enough to keep alight this little yellow flame feebly darting from side to side, panting, as if straining to tear itself from its wick.
It is the
desire to create (Rig-Veda again!) despite the wariness, the fatigue and the sense
of futility. That’s why it is (whereas
it’s not) a good example of what l’aventure
de l’écriture could mean in the nouveau
roman acceptation. That is why you can read it (but can you?) in a
deconstructivist way, since it seems to prefigure Derrida’s idea of a language
“caught at a moment of crisis”.
All these “it
is” whereas “it isn’t” or maybe “it will be” although “it won’t” form the
essence of a narrative that speaks about the
vicious circle of the creative impulse caught between creative angst and
creative obsession and unable to stop. Thus the first words: “Keep going, going
on (call that going, call that on)”, which mirror the last: “I can't go on. I'll
go on.”
Did I find this
kind of narrative interesting? Of course I did – it’s always fascinating to see
how an author manages to stretch the conventional borders of a genre in order
to experiment new forms. Would I like to read more in the same style? I don’t
think so – my conventional, somehow conservative view of the novel makes me
seek characters, and a plot, and a dialogue. I can be diverted for a while, and
look curiously into another approach, but I keep faithfully returning to old
models.
But, on the
other hand, what the heck? Every voice that rings true has a right to be heard.
The rest depends, as usually, on the reader’s horizon of expectations.
Anyway, as Stephen
Spender warned in his New York Times review, it’s better not to get overawed by
the obvious narcissism of a work that superciliously closes within: “Nevertheless,
it is important that the Beckett cult should not blind us to his limitations.
The interest hovers on the edge of complete solipsism, and his contempt for
everyone and everything outside groping self-awareness, verges on the
automatically facile.”
And yet. And yet.
Can you really not hear the sombre sarcasm that shadows and reveals (solitaire
cloud overpassing the moon) a portrait (too complex to be suspected of
automatic facility) of doomed humanity in quotes like these?
Ah mother of God, the things one has to listen to!
I never made anyone suffer, I never stopped anyone's sufferings: no one will ever stop mine.
No need of a mouth: the words are everywhere, inside me, outside me.
I use them all, all the words they showed me.
But the question may be asked, why time doesn't pass? (Just like that, off the record, en passant - to pass the time.)
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